I find myself wondering about certain situations and if maybe it's time for me to reconcider what is more important. Yes, I'm vague on the situation. In fact none of this is going to make sense without me getting into it. I just feel that other people get so wrapped up into themselves that they forget that other people exist. I'm aware enough to know that any serious decisions I make will effect other people. Unfortunatley, that's not how the world works & it's all about instant gratification & the quick fix to happiness. But I think that maybe it's better to figure out what we do & don't want & not just settle for what's thrown in front of us. Maybe reflecting on what is broken & why it broke is more important than filling in a hole just because it's empty. Is moving on the answer or just a quick fix? This pertains to a lot of things going on for me.....even though this may not make sense I guess what I'm basically doing is reflecting on these things.
It's not often that I post anything on LJ but today is a special special day for me. Yes it is and I have someone just as special to thank. So thank you! Thank you for thinking so low of me to actually do something that is very FUCKED UP , but yet don't have the cajones to ask me about it while standing in my house. Yes you know who you are! I'm sure you have your reasons...in fact I bet they're great ones too! The truth is I didn't do that to your car. Think what you want about me, I don't care & never did!!!! So why write this if I don't care? Well, I'm a lot of things good & bad just like you & everyone else on this planet!!!! But do know this, I do have character & integrity!!!! If your going to bad mouth me to everyone or no one, get your facts straight before you jump to conclusions & blame me for something I didn't do!!! Oh wait, I guess your thinking "where there's smoke there's fire" ...um not me, sorry to disappoint! The only animosity I hold towards you is the fact that you physically crossed a line with someone I deeply care about. I can't forgive that but I would never act upon it in that manner. So please, don't use me as your current excuse to alienate & eliminate your "friendship" with someone, because you can't trust them anymore. The reason being who he associates with or at least that's how I hear it! Find a valid reason other than who he assoicates with...you know, people all over the world have friends that their "other" friends can't tolerate yet somehow make it work. Either be his friend/acquaintance or don't!!! It's that simple just don't drag me into your messy little tiffs. You invest way too much energy into them....speaking of wasted energy!!! So, to quote Joan Jett and end this rant.... " I don't give damn about my bad reputation!!!"
p.s. I held 2 things in my hand that night....1. a red cup of diet ginger ale (which I drank) and 2. my flask, which had whisky(and which I drank).
If for some odd reason anyone has any questions about this odd rant/post, you can make a comment or email me at:
sidsnotdead at gmail dot com